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Name: SaSiPak
Country: United States
State: Nevada
Metro: Las Vegas
Birthday: 6/19/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: GoD, PraYinG, BaSkEtBaLL, PiNg PoNg, PiAnO, siNgINg, HanGing OuT WiTh FrIeNdS (wHEn EveR i GeT dA ChANce) CoOkInG, ChAtTinG, DRawInG, PoeTry, BeiNg iN DeEp Th0uGhtS, n QueSTioNinG LiFE
Expertise: EaTinG, NOT SLeePInG (insomniac...=\), pLaYiNG sPoRtS!!! AnD BeINg Meh...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  SnackPackTapioca
AIM:  ThaiChicka87
Member Since:
10/21/2003
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| i havent used this since last summer...so i think its time to revived the xanga lol life's been ok...seattle was a wonderful adventure with lots of fun...but maybe too much lol but still....create a lot of great and long lasting friends...i hope =] there's up n downs...but i love the city...think ill stick around a lil bit longer. im finally back in LV n its been a nice welcoming...finally home...in my own bed...feels nice =] but its summer time n i just wished i could do more...but with the strict parents...nothing's changed...im still bored...n always home...im finally engaged now! but no worries...no wedding ne time soon...charles is in iraq right now for his first tour til november n im just missin him like mad...::sigh:: its hard...not knowing wen he'll call n we just have letters to rely on...but that's ok...cuz we're strong n i believe our love can conquer this test in our relationship =] i trust in us! ne who...i might be heading to thailand late july or early august...but too all of u in vegas...call me up sometimes...i wanna see as many of you guys as possible...its been a long time...today was nice...kinda a lil reunion...wished more people were able to show though...but it was great seeing angey,caitlin,maureen,barbs,ray,david n jill again...cheesecake was just too yummy =] n i had the opportunity to share jills first cheesecake experience with her! we deverginized jill! lol ne who...who ever still uses this...n takes the time to read my usually long ass blogs....tell me how all ur summers are going =] hope all is well!  | | |
| time's finally come...i cant believe that im leaving tomorroe....time just flew right by....i dont really know how i feel right now....so many mixed emotions....im happy that im finally leaving and getting to venture off and do things on my own...but im also sad that i have to leave everyone...even though ill be back...its just not gonna be the same w/ out everyone...its like learning how to walk n talk all over again...wont know ne one going there into a whole new atmosphere...wish me luck guys! iono wen ill be able to come one again once i move cuz i just gotta settle and everything....but i will for sure keep in contact as much as i can...ill miss you all immensely and ill never forget the memories...love all of u and dont forget this sasi ='] yesterday was my last day at work...imma miss that job...hopefully i wont have that much of a hard time trying to find another job once im down there...=/ flight's at 6:25 in the morning on the 13th...gotta be at the airport at 4 in the morning...i still gotta finish packing >.< ::sigh:: i wish everyone the best...n just for now...farewell n until we meet again =] love you guys and remember to ALWAYS keep in touch..."friendship is measure not by the distant...but through the heart" take care n see you in december!
Always,
Sasipak Butsakron-O-Pas | | |
| time heals all wounds...the pain will subside and the everything will be ok... ::sigh:: it weird how a feeling can mean so much...holds so much emotions....and can scar you forever... love isnt something you mess around with...to love you give that other person all your trust and emotions hoping they will take care of it and cherish is til the end of time...but sometimes things dont work out as you plan...you get crushed and feel like you heart has been torn into tiny pieces...never to be put back again...but then you come to realize that you're strong...and that you will overcome this obstacle on you road of life... hearts change and so does love...but when the time comes and that right person appears in front of your door...all the pains and sorrows will subside...that person will pick up that shattered heart of yours and though their love...that person will mend your broken heart....you live for you but when the time is right the one made for you will show and they will be there with you through all obstacles and challenges and hold your hands and walk with you down that path of life with all their hearts and soul....::SigH:: lifes too short to waste it on the one that was never made for you...keep moving forward...try to not look back....have the will. the faith. and the power to continue =] yes i was hurt and still am...but its time for me to leave the memories and they are...give it some times...and things will go my way...=]
if someone does read this and knows what am going through hopefully my words will help you get through the pain too....
MY DEFINITION OF LOVE....
by Sasipak Butskaron-O-Pas
love is a word...
spoken too loosely
but holds a powerful meaning
there's no exact definition
only the emotion one feels for another
its a feeling that's undefined
and shown through expression
it can also be misleading
there's only a farely thin line
seperating love from lust
one may feel
as if what they have is real
cause all they want
is to live in fantasies
too afraid to except reality
that what they feel
was nothing more than infatuation
when we find love
never do we want that feeling to leave
to feel the completion
like your finally whole
its the feeling we never want to let go
but love cannot be
if only one is commited
you just have to admit it
love cant be force
but felt from two hearts
connected through two souls
through life we learn these difference
whether it be love or lust
friendships or relationships
everyone goes through them
we live and we learn
through trails and errors
through hellos and goodbyes
how can you know unless u have tried
there will always be the ups
but with it also comes the downs
to love both have to be accepted
we all make mistakes
but to love one must forgive
no one is perfect
but we come to learn
that its through the imperfection
that make us fall in love
im still young and my mind's still growing
but from where i am
this is how i would interprete
how my mind and my heart have it explained
that love is simply complex
and not meant to be understood
you just know your in love
when the time is right
and when the feelings are true
all your dreams and wishes will be answered
when you find that person truely meant for you
"Just Hold On"
Boyz II Men
I know you've been going through some things
The pain you hold inside's written on your face
I know you're 'bout tired of the rain
Well, baby, so am I, but I know things can change
Well, you can die, you can sigh, you can cry, to your midnight blue
But that's not you, no, no
Cause I know you're stronger
It's apparent to me so do you
[Chorus:]
If you just hold on
I swear everything'll be okay
I know you're nervous
I know, but baby, give it some time
Things will go your way, my love
If you just hold on
I swear everything'll be okay
I know that you're nervous
Baby, give it some time
Things will go your way
I know it's been heavy on your mind
Baby, give him up, he's not worth your time
Where is it that says you need a guy
Well, you don't need his love to justify your life
So, he can go, let him go, make him go
You should want him to
So can you
I know that you're stronger
It's getting clearer to me
So do you
[Chorus]
So, don't let your defenses down
I know that somehow you'll work it out
I know
You should just believe in yourself, yourself
[Chorus]
I know
I know
[Fade out] | | |
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haha this cracked me up...
ronethdubria 05 (3:16:13 PM): lmao lmao i always thought ur screen name said thai chicken
puahahaha....thanks roneth! lol
ne ways...couldnt really sleep these pass days...so wrote a poem...got alot off my chest so that helped alot...guess imma just try n move on...
thought i had found true love
but i guess i was wrong
thought we'd be together
but that was nothing but a song
you said you messed up and that you were sorry
so i let you back in
a week later comes a different story
you asked me what i would do
if one day i started liking someone new
told you that you're crazy
that will never be
cuz all i can think about was you and me
you said to give an answer
so i asked what you would do
"what kind of love?"
"to fuck or just to become good friends?"
right then i knew it was gonna end
couldn't sleep trying to figure out why
did nothing but stared into space and cried
come the next day
what i thought of came true
you said to end what's there between me n you
"the emotions are mixed..."
"and I don't wanna hurt you more"
so lets just stop and settle the score
I know am dumb and haven't got a clue
So I told you to just take ur break n figure out
what it is that you are wanting
and I'll wait once again...
and try to continue enduring the pain
but something tells me that you're not coming back
so I'm once again my negative self
just wished that you can see...
that there's nothing more i need
than to be with you endlessly
but I've come to realize
that I've been nothing but blind
and didn't wanna admit or see
reality hit and there's no more fantasies...
to one day see each other face to face
was nothing more than words...
so I'm letting you go
at least I knoe you are happy
even though its hella hurting me...
glad you found someone
who can be there with you
and give you the love that you need
while I sit here all alone
hiding from you this heart i bleed... | | |
| new layout w/ my sis n i....thanks roger! =] looks great n i love the song! havent been sleeping much lately n have so much on my mind.... went to angie's birthday party yesterday! it was a blast...too bad i didnt get to watch the movie w/ them (sorry angie for all the hassle!) my step must've called her house like 10 time in a couple hours =/ den i got into a really big arguement w/ him...so blagh! wooo saaaa *breaths* ne ways....i hella miss everyone....n i hope all ur summer's are going well! miss playing bball w/ the gang...miss hanging out n going to lunch w/ my barbster n funshine! n miss the fun-ness in the tite ass graphics class..."are u listening!!! whoa oh ho oh woo oh!!!! *rawr* wish i had a car...=( well that's about it...wrote another poem but ill post that later....too lazy to type n i gtg clean....argh....aiite latez | | |
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